Thursday, April 05, 2007

Who are we?
Current mood: pensive

So, I have been thinking a lot lately about who I am. Am I the person that I was in high school – somewhat boy crazy, attention-loving, do my own thing, not care what people thought person? Am I the person I was in college – crazy, fun-loving, somewhat out of control person? Am I the person I am now – settled, working wife and mother, trying to do what is right? Or would I even be the person I am now without the past?

I have been talking to some old friends that I haven’t talked to in years. And some of those friends and I parted on not great terms. Yet I want so much for them to know that I am not the same person I was back then. I am so much more sensitive to the feelings of others. Regardless of the fact that I am self-confident, I still wonder what people think about me and want people to like me.

This book I have been reading has really got me to thinking about being the person we claim to be. One of his comments is “Do I want social justice for the oppressed, or do I just want to be known as a socially active person?” Hmmm.

And then I start thinking about authenticity. Which is better – to live a life of apparent “holiness” or to live an authentic life that may fall short of holiness? For me, I think I would rather that people saw me as an authentic person who struggles to live a life that is pleasing to God. It’s hard to be good all the time. We were created for good, but it doesn’t come naturally because of the fall.

What do you think?

Currently reading :
Blue Like Jazz: Nonreligious Thoughts on Christian Spirituality
By Donald Miller
Release date: 17 July, 2003